dear Lucy

It's been a while since I've written you a letter.
Yesterday I was watching you sleep beside me.
You had just eaten and had fallen asleep in pure bliss.
I feasted my eyes on your sweet full cheeks
your lip crumpled up,
your dimpled chin,
your little whisps of blonde hair.
I listened to you breathing.
Every now and then you would take a big deep breath
your face would change but then back into a
happy dream you would go.
I love you my little girl.
I love feeding you and cuddling you
and watching you grow.
You are such a funny happy little one.
It makes me think you love me too.
You bring new joy into my life every day.
You are getting so much bigger and now you
chatter away to me and sing with me.

I can tell that we are going to be good friends.
But I'll always be your mama.

Dear little one...

You are finally here!
Being your mama has to be one of the
most wonderful things in the world
You are just as precious and wonder-
ful as I thought you would be.
I love giving you cuddles and staring
into your big blue eyes.
I love listening to the noises you make
I even love hearing you cry. You have
the sweetest little voice and I'm learning
how to figure out what you mean when
you cry so it's usually not too hard to make
you stop.
I love having you in our family and I love
watching your dada and you together.
It's pretty much the most adorable thing.

so glad you are here.

love
mama xxx

Dear little one...

your due date is only five days away.
Your dada and I have been waiting such
a long time for you to arrive and now
it is so soon we can smell it!
The suspense is killing me.
Anytime you want to come now is
a-ok with us. I cant wait to see your
little nose and count your toes and
fingers. To hold you in my arms and
smell your sweet baby skin.
I am living at this state of heightened
excitement. Everytime my body gives a
little twinge I think "Is she coming?"

Come soon little one. It's been the best
time of my life carrying you around inside
of me. I will never forget how nice it feels
but I am so ready to give you a big cuddle

love mama

Dear little one...

your dada has gone back to
college this week and I'm
getting a taste of what the year
will be like.
except..
pretty soon I am going to have
you to play with and talk to
all day. We can miss your dada
together and give him a big hug
when he comes home each day.
I've been getting ready for you
to come. Even though I'm so
keen to see you I'm glad they don't
have to start you coming early.
I've still got loads to do! Loads of
washing that is. It makes me smile
seeing all your little clothes. I am
imagining putting your little
body inside of them.

Can't wait to fill up your clothes.

love mama

xx

Dear little one...

we get to see you again today!
In just a little over an hour your
dada and I will get to see your
sweet little self up on the screen.
We need to check that that ole bag
of fun your placenta has moved up
and isn't covering the spot where
you need to come out.
If it is they will have to cut me open
and pull you out when the time comes.
I hope it's moved away. I'd like to be
wide awake for when you come
into the world.
I'm so excited to see you.
You will be so big.

love mama

xx

Dear little one...

I am looking forward to meeting you so much
I keep imagining what you will look like
and what your little cry will sound like.
I long to hold your fingers and toes
and rock you to sleep in my arms.
I want to see you lying on your dadas chest
such a small little bundle cuddling up to
a big strong man.
I'm preparing myself for your arrival.
I'm a bit nervous about it little one.
I think it might be hard work but I want you
so much. It will be the best hard work I have
ever done.

Thanks for keeping me feeling so well.
I don't feel sore. Just big.

Can't wait to meet you.

love mama

xx

dear little one

your dada and I have had such
a lovely holiday with you
It is so hard to believe that the
next time we go away together
for a holiday you will be with us.
It makes me pretty excited.
I can't wait to show you all the
wonderful things there are to see.
I hope we go on lots of little family
holidays and I hope you like riding
in your car seat.

Looking forward to meeting you my
little one. We are so close!

love mama

xx

Dear little one...

you are starting to get heavy
I'm feeling like and old woman
lugging you about in mah belly.
Your little kicks are getting
stronger every day. I can feel
your tiny feet in my belly and
they squirm away when I touch
them. I'm starting to look forward
to you coming out and feel like
having you inside will get
a bit trickier from now on.
But you are so worth it.
When you come out we will dance
and run and play games ok?

love mama

xox

Dear little one...

It was your first Christmas on Saturday.
Did you enjoy all the tasty treats
flavouring your amniotic fluid?
We got you a special christmas
present. You will be able to wear it
when you come out to see us.
I think you will like Christmas next
year. You will be able to crawl
around and play in the wrapping
paper. You will even get to taste the
dinner by yourself.

love you lots

love mama

xx

Dear little one

It's almost Christmas time.
It's getting so so hot and
you are my little christmas
hot water bottle. I have to
stay in the shade and drink
lots of cold drinks.
You are worth it.
I'm looking forward to next
Christmas. You will be nine
months old. I will get to wrap
up some presents for you and
you will get to play with
the wrapping paper.
I wonder if we will have some
nice Christmas traditions you
and I. We have been listening
to Handel's messiah together.
Maybe we can do that every
year.

love mama

xx

Dear little one...

this morning your
dada was trying to listen
to your heartbeat.
He had his head on my
belly and was calling
your name.
He loves you so so much.
You must like the sound
of his deep voice because
you started kicking him
right on his face.
He liked that I think.

love mama

xx

Dear little one...

you have a very lovely aunty.
you will call her aunty Gem.
she is my big sister.
You gave her a kick for the
first time this week. Don't
make a habit of it later when
you come out. I don't think
she will like it much. But you
can for now. She was the first
one to feel you move other than
your mama and dada.
You are going to have a birthday
really close to aunty Gem. I think
she is excited about that.
You will be good friends.

love mama

xx

Dear little one...

your dada and I celebrated a
special milestone yesterday.
I love your dada very much
I think he is going to love
you very much too.
It's so amazing that in such
little time God has given us
both so much love in each
other and now in you. I find it
hard to believe I could love
someone so much that I haven't
even met. I love that I get to meet
you and know who you are.

love mama.

xx

Dear little one...

you are so precious.
I got to hear your dear little
heartbeat again today.
That sound will never get old.
I am so so lucky to be your
mama.
Not a day goes by when I don't
feel incredibly blessed.
It will be so swell to meet you
but for now I am just so happy
to have you inside of me.
I get to take you everywhere
I go. That's nice.

Stay safe in there little one.

love mama

xx

dear little one

at the moment your dada
is doing his exams.
It will be so nice to have you
around next year for this
kind of thing.
I fear I am always a distraction
so when you are here I can
play with you and solve
all the problems.
That or we can just distract
him together.

Looking forward to playing
with you little one.

love mama

Dear little one...

I have decided that you are going to be a
gentle, quiet little thing.
It has been one of the best feelings
of my life to have you wriggle away
inside of me but baby you are soft.
I feel the gentlest little kicks and
nudges.
I'm not saying it like it's a bad thing.
I think your dada and I would be proud
to have a sweet little hippy peacemaker.
I'm looking forward to getting to know you
little smalls.
Even if I'm wrong and you are craaaazy.

love mama

xx

Dear little one...

Oh baby I have been so worried about you.
I'm getting into paranoid mama mode
and keep imagining scary things.
but
we got to hear your heartbeat again
and the midwife said it was perfect!
That's you! Perfect!
I hope you are having a fun old time
swimming away inside there.
Prepare yourself because we are going
to take a peep at you next week.
Cant wait to see you in black and white!

love Mama

xx





Do it for the little one. Go on. Vote. :)

Dear little one...

You are growing fingernails this week.
I'm imagining your little nail-less hands
it makes me want to hold them.
Will we paint those nails together?
Will you have your dadas hands. I hope
if you are a girl you don't. He has man
hands.
Will those fingers wear rings? A wedding
ring perhaps? One day...
I will hold those hands when we cross the
road, teach those hands to draw and paint
and maybe play the violin?
Those hands will clap and dance and click
and help you to pick your nose.
Oh little one. I look forward to meeting those
hands and the little person attached to them.

love mama
xx

Dear little one...

People are starting to notice you in my
tummy little one.
You are poking out and saying hello
to the world.
We still don't know if you are ok or not
but we got to hear your little heartbeat
the other day and the midwife said you
are very active for such a young one.
You have a startle reflex and its cute
thinking of you getting stunned every
time I poke my belly.
You are 16 weeks old. I wonder what you
will be like at sweet 16 years old. Will you
have never been kissed?
Can't wait to know that about you!

love mama

xx

You are 15 weeks old

Dear little one,

I hope you're doing ok in there.
Its so frustrating not being
able to see or feel you.
I think I will worry about you
forever.
When you come out, when you
graze your knee, when you go to
school, when you leave home, when
you get married and have your own
little ones your mama is going to
be there worrying about you.
I know God has you in his hands and
that makes me stop worrying.
Hang in there little one.

love mama.
xx